I guess my internet “friends” will do.
Open door nights suck. I really want to know people on my floor and in my dorm, but I am really really bad at talking to people.
I came out of my room and one of the guys asked said “so you live in the big room? Is it a single?” and all I said was “no, I have a roommate.” What I should have said was something about how my roommate’s boyfriend lives upstairs and if they new him or asked if one of them lives above me. But no! My mind just freezes and I can’t think of anything to say. It really really sucks and is definitely putting a damper on my college experience. I am however good at talking to people when I’m drunk, but of course no one ever remembers my name the next day.
I always thought i’d go through college and have new people i’d meet and that would be my “group” of friends that i’d be able to hangout and do whatever with. Everyone I have met has been through my grade through high school friends. Which is fine I guess I just feel like I don’t really have a place. I don’t know, i sound really pathetic though. All I want is to make friends :(
